I'm new to this blogging thing. I have been told I am a decent enough writer and I really need sometime to do to keep my mind off of somethings and maybe... make a connection to someone? I'm not sure how I should put it. I'm falling apart on the inside. I feel eyes on me constantly, even when I am alone. I feel like a figure lingers over my shoulder, constantly watching my every move. Every step I take is judged by someone I can't see. It's not god, atleast not mine. I see people, or a person, I can't tell. The shadows move when nothing is there to move them. Even the trees shape strangely, as if trying to cage something beneath them. I feel tired and sluggish. I've become more compulsive. I'm jumpy. I can't focus, I'm distracted. I just can't understand why though. Nothing is the same anymore. I'm drifting from my friends because I'm irritable and I change moods every second. I can't even think straight; my mind settles on images and words I've never seen or heard before. It's like someone is putting thoughts that are not my own into my mind.
Even this post is taking longer than it should to be written. It's as if someone is constantly opening the door to look at me then closing it just before I can look and try to find the gaze that settles on me. Just a few weeks ago I was frolicking through life, enjoying every second of it. I want to go back to that.